Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Could it be? or do my thoughts get the best of me

Well.  It's now May and I am usually starting my period today or tomorrow.  I have had no sign.  I have had backache on and off for the last several days.  Hot face came yesterday afternoon and lasted until early evening.  My menstrual cycle feels like it's going to start at any moment but there has been nothing there.  I have been running to the bathroom anticipating but "nope".  I took a HPT this morning and it was BFN.  I took one on last night and it was hard to read.  It looked as if there was faint line there but not sure.  I can tell you that these Clear Blue Easy HPT aren't the greatest from my experiences.  I have slight twinges and pains in my lower abdomen but they don't feel like my normal menstrual cramps.  They are very odd.  I have been getting up almost every night to attend to the late night pee.  My dreams have been extremely vivid (in fact I woke up crying yesterday and laughing the day before).  Very emotional.  But I don't think i am pregnant.  I am still not officially overdue on my menstrual cycle since it is so irregular.  I don't want to get excited as many of these symptoms I have experienced from high prolactin caused by my tumor.  Also I am not sure but my body does not feel the usual.  I am keeping my fingers crossed.  I hope.